“Where did I put the list of emails last night, so I wouldn’t forget to send them today?” I said this over and over as I searched through several piles of papers and resources on my desk, folders in my drawer, and my file pile in the cupboard. The more I rummaged through my messes, the more aggravated and frustrated I became with myself.
Stop the Spin Cycle
I began to feel like the Tasmanian Devil whirling inside my office. I stopped, sat down, and I took a deep breath. I decided to practice what I teach. I started taking my thoughts captive, and I realize finding my paper wasn’t life or death. I looked around, shrugged my shoulders, and I said, “Oh well. I think this is my opportunity to clean up my space.”
I grabbed a stack of papers and sorted them into piles. I had a to-do pile, a file pile, and a resource pile. Halfway through my cleanup, I found my email list. I taped it to my computer monitor to make sure I wouldn’t lose it again!
After all my loose papers were in the right pile, I organized and prioritized them. I chose to take all my chaos and turn it into an opportunity to take inventory. After my clean up session, I knew what resources I had or needed, what I had done, and what I needed to do. I felt like I had not only cleaned my office, but I had cleared my mind. With a clear head, I found new strength and determination to continue my mission for the day with clear purpose.
Confirmation of Peace
The next morning in my time with Jesus, while listening to praise music, I heard the song, Just Breathe, by Jonny Diaz. It reminded me of my decision the day before to stop and calm myself. My decision stopped me from fueling more craziness in my life and letting my emotions take over. I took my thoughts captive. I let the peace of Jesus put things into perspective. I could see how far I’d come in my life and the wonderful path God has put me on for my future. He reminded me of the resources of talents, skills, and spiritual gifts He placed in me. This time of refocusing in the chaos helped me be grateful and empowered to continue my God-life mission to be a champion for abused women.
What are Your Resources?
Have you stopped and taken the time to inventory the resources Jesus has placed in you and how you are using them? Especially the fruits of the spirit—love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, (Galatians 5:22-23); Have you thanked God for your unique talents and gifts?
Take a few minutes right now and write down all your talents and skills. Next, write down all the times Jesus has shown you his peace, love, grace, faithfulness, courage, and strength this past year. Don’t listen to any negative message in your mind from your abusive husband or even yourself. Thank Jesus for his faithfulness and ask him to help you continue to grow resources and live in your faith. Through your gratefulness and clarity, you’ll find the power of Jesus to help you overcome your life’s challenges just as he did!
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